Well today has been quite interesting, ive decided not to purge anymore unless i really REALLY need to.Last night i couldnt sleep so i wondered the whole night through the house even made some coffee, yet fell asleep at 5 am. When i woke up it was already noon and nobody was paying attention to the fact i hadnt eaten anything.
Ive taken this day as an actual challenge, i sliced a tomatoes with some salt and 4 pieces of cucumber and managed to only eat 3 slices of tomatoes and 2 of cucumber i felt so proud and then a slice of whole wheat bread (total: 90 cals or so)
It been a good day except for the fact that my sister has been bugging me everyday about everything! she just makes me so angry with her constant judging.
I have this friend, the first person to really know about my ED and apparently shes been thinking alot about food these days, has been counting calories and eating less than what she did, shes not really the skinny girl but has always fought with her weight, she was always talking to me about getting better and that i was already skinny, telling how it was bad what i was doing and how she would never do that but look at her now.
She talked to me,trying to get help from me but, common is she seriously asking me for an advice, shes seriously asking me if i think shes crazy, i just find that rather irrational.
I stopped talking to her about what i felt a long time ago, but i still care about her to much and wouldnt want her to fall for the same thing i did, but i just dont know how to tell her, or talk to her if im lying to her about me getting over all this. I would appreciate any advice about how i can help her.
Does anyone know how i can keep her from falling into this?
I feel so useless these days,so weak.
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