confused

yesterday was my cousins graduation day and i waas so excited i even decided to fast through thr whole day, i wore this really tight black TINY dress and everyone that saw me kept just saying i was too skinny that i needed to eat etc but they just want to see me fat again and ugly, they want to see me like i used to be but im never going back to that. One of my teacher cam to me a told me but it is worth it and told me how good i look so i dont get itt!?? people keep telling me your so cute youve changed so much yet then they come like you nee to eat your too skinny?? they were the ones that opened my eyes at first they showed me how i really was FAT and now they just wanna help me go back to that!? well no,im not going back to that,theres never to thin. i can feel the fat of my body the pounds the large pound that weigh to much. i have to eat less.
                    Be smart and control
                       Be strong
            I dont need food
                             Empty is happiness
  I need to eat less less lesss
             the less the better
                                   the smaller the better.