This last 2 days were horrible, i kept on eating and eating after i got couple of people telling me to eat...i just couldnt find the power to stop or to control myself. Every single time i ate it was until i was full and right after it get it all out. Ive felt so bad and week and tired, i dont want anyone at my house to know about this i dont want them to realize i lied, but i deserve to suffer for being such a liar.
Today i managed to control myself (thanks to god!) and didnt even have dinner.Im planning on starting tomorrow restricting even harder.For breakfast plan on just having coffee then a chicken cesar salad (300 cal or so) and then have nothing else but water. Im kinda of a chocohlic but i havent had chocolate for 3 days now and i plan on keeping it that way until i reach my goal (100) for my b day(22/7). Ive started to cook for my sister and friends and i love it i consider it as a challenegge it make me feel in control the fact that instead of licking my finger when im covered in cream chesse or butter/cheese i take a napkin and clean it without taking anything to my mouth (: i feel in control.
wish me luck :)
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