first had 3 egg whites with broccoli that was going ok until i saw some cheetos ate like 6 sticks of cheetos then just stopped...but then i had this huge fight with someone i really care and it was basically because of my ED so for some reason i just got so pissed and binged on bread!! how lame is itt i ate 2 sandwishes of whitee bread!! then like 2 cheese and ham rolls and a cup of frozen brownie yogurtt! *urghh* i feel so disgusted just by saying it but luckily i took alot of water but when i finished i couldnt even breath and i felt i was gonna faint but i found the strength to get myself to the bathroom and get everything i could out...
I feel so disgusted with myself
took some pictures some hours later this is the only one i dared to upload yet i still have so much to loose :/
Luckily it was an early b/p and i managed to not eat anything after 6 pm
the good news is that my mom came like at 7 and i convinced her to by me some laxt. cause im supposedly really bad of the stomach so this is the plann before my big fast, tomorrow ill just eat soup and then drink the lax after that only water ill make sure im completely empty before i start my fast besides im looking forward for the date of my bday now even more cause my dads family is coming and i havent seen them in so longg and im sure theres gonna be ALOT of food and i dont think ill be able to get off this time so i have to reach the 100lbs for then.
I just hope i wont screw up again,i have to do this.
I can control it
i have to be strong in order to suceed
I can do this, i dont need food
the less the better.
wish me luck :)
Lina (new nickname) :)
Don't worry too much about the binge. Just remember to do better tomorrow! Stay strong.
ReplyDeleteGood luck tomorrow!
ReplyDeleteDon't worry about binging, we've all been there.
Just forget about it and start new tomorrow, you can do it! (:
xxx
Your stomach looks AWESOME! Seriously.
ReplyDeleteAnd tomorrow's a new day! :)